Test Anxiety???

It appears I have test anxiety. Many a morning during this summer the morning light and the realization of where I was came as grateful truth. I wasn't sitting at a desk looking down at a test I knew I was incapable of passing. My dream wasn't my reality.

The latest dream in my nightly series comes as a bit of an exotic entry to the usual subjects I find myself before (math, Spanish, etc.) I dreamt that I had to take a 250 question test on the Harry Potter books that like all the others I was destined to fail. The Harry Potter aspect is strange but the essence of this dream has become an all too common theme for me. In many a dream this summer I've found myself anxious and certain of failure even before beginning these tests.

I've never had a dream reoccur so many anxious times. What it all means has been pondered much, answered a little, and laughed at quite a bit as well. Who dreams themselves into taking tests on Harry Potter and not giving themselves abilities to cast spells, play Quidditch or the like?

Just me.

Yes, I'm a nerd and here's why...

It's been months since I came home from my trip and during the majority of that time not much has been what I would consider blog worthy. To usher in this new season of blogging I will reveal my inner nerd and how it escapes from time to time to embarrass me just a bit.

Tonight was the last concert of the summer at the Gallivan. Calexico put on a great show. It's not every day that you hear a southwestern stew of country, Mariachi, a bit of flamenco, and other tasty bites tossed together to make for an unforgettable musical flavor.

I love the excuse these concerts give me to move and groove a bit more than is permissible otherwise. I left the concert with the buena onda still in my mind and found myself waiting at a stop light rhythmically tapping away to my left signal blinker even though my destination was straight ahead. I have no idea how long it was on while I was off in my own little world.

Tonight my inner nerd escaped and I'm happy I unconsciously indulged it. I think way too often we suppress the happiness and joy we feel because of social norms and pressures. I'm still smiling about the escape and reveling in other memories it brings up of the little moments I catch of other people doing the same as I did.

So I say... give your inner nerd permission to enjoy life a bit more than your socially conscious self would allow!!!